Theme Fridays: At Last

THEME FRIDAYS

 

This week’s theme is at last.  i immediately thought of that song, you know the one, and thought most of us would think of that song so for once, i took the easy way.  

Thanks to Annie for this week’s theme.

at last

There were the others and they needed.  The others- more beautiful, trouble, sad, voice, need.  And me then- at last.  Ugly.  Silent.  Invisible, hidden.

See, i was good.  Not inside but i could do and did do all the right things.  The things good does- all my homework.  Modest dress.  Responsible behavior.  Quelled passion.  Submission.  Appropriate silence.  Differential denials.  Not in the way.  A helper, a coverer, a smoother overer. 

Camouflaged.  A shadow.  Wall-colored.  Smoke….

i didn’t subtract from the others.  i didn’t add up.

Then at last…

i was the one.  Eyes wandered, mosied, over my face, my hips, my words and deflecting hand.  i existed, was actual, mattering.  There was a clear view of me.  And i married those eyes and all in which they were nestled, and the laugh that accompanied them, their hands and ability to hold smoke. 

Bones formed, cell by cell.  Skin.  Vocal cords and i spoke to listening.  i could cry and did.  i could stumble and need.  i was no longer the ugly one or the nerdy one or the good one.  i just was and those eyes just are and we are just and are and are and are…

At last.

end

Annie, at last-

At last, Urban Panther-

(Copyright 2008 )  c A Hughes
10.31.08